Jocelyn Mendoza

Hi I am Elizabeth Jazmine Mendoza Castillo. But I go by shorty or Snooki I am 25 years old and been through hell and back my whole life. I found this page through watching Elizabeth Gift the spiritual movie that has me crying every time I watch it, because I been through the system of child protection services known as foster care I am lucky to be able to be here and tell my story.
My mom is Martha Elizabeth Castillo, she was a good mom at one point in my life, along with my dad Jesus J Mendoza he was also a good dad at one point but he changed when he started some things that caused domestic violence and I had to step in to protect my mom and siblings I was just a kid at the time I was sent from God for a reason and at age 14 I knew what was my mission. I didn’t understand why and how it happened but March 12 2011 @ 10:30pm my siblings and I were taken by cps because my mom couldn’t get us away from him. My siblings till this day blames me for everything. My dad got deported back to Mexico and he blames me for that and more he also tries to get in my head that if he dies it will be my fault and if I could ever sleep at night with the thought of him dying. Sometimes I fear for him but I know that deep down I did what I had to do to protect my siblings, my mom, and myself. Don’t get me wrong I love my parents but I need to move on and stop blaming myself for what happened and start believing in why I did it and what that experience made me be the person I am today.